Bzzzz. That is all I hear all day. I think my head is malfunctioning!!! Bzzzzz. Bzzzzzzzzz. I seriously hear my brain short circuiting all day long! It has been a very long few weeks for me. I am ready to just come crashing down. Bzzzzzz. Bzzzzzzz. I think my head is trying to tell me something. I see people talking to me, their mouths moving. All I hear is bzzzzzzz. I can't focus on anything, and if I try to hard, I just get in a pissy mood and snap someone's head off. Maybe the Bzzzzzz is my head's way of keeping my friends. Lol! I am definately over extended. I think way too much is going on, I feel like i don't have any time to just sit still and breath. I am being pulled in like 100000000 different directions. And just for the record, I dodn't bring most of it on myself.

All I tell myself is soon, the bzzzzzzzz will stop. But it doesn't. My mom says "Set a date for your wedding!!!" I hear "bzzzzzzzz". The bar results came out; my letter? It said Congratulations, Bzz bzzzz bzzz bzzz bzzz. Kristen asks "What is going on with bingo Betty's bachelorette party." All my head registers is "bzzzzzzzzzz." My sister calls and says edit my paper. I swear, all her last paper said was "bzzz bzzzzzzzzz bzzz bzzzzzzzzz bz bz bz." i have been looking for a job as an attorney. I try to sift through the thousands of job postings to find my diamond in the rough. They all say the same thing: "Bzzzz bzzzz bzzz bzzzzzzz with 7-10 years of experience. Bzzzzzzz." Joe says "come visit me this weekend", I hear "Drive 4 hours bzzz bzzz bzz bzzzzz bzzzz."

I think I tend to block things out a little when I get freaked out. Lol. My body does it on its own. Nothing registers. I just stay completely isolated from all of the stress and drama. All that registers with me is "Bzzzzz bzzzbzbzbzbzbz bzzzzzz".

Once Betty's wedding is all over, and all the planning and stressing by everyone is done, and once I have a real job with a real income, maybe the bzzzz will go away? WHo knows, though?!?!!? But seriously, what on earth else can possibly happen? In 1 month, I get engaged, my brother moves into my house from California, the red sox win the world series, I pass the bar, and Betty is about to get married. I am so totally overwhelmed. Maybe thats why my head won't stop bzzzzzzzz' ing. I cannot wait till all the bzzzz dies down and I can return to some form of normalcy in my life. I onluy have to get through May, and then my Joe Joe Bear will at least be living in the same state as me, and I can relax and chill on the weekends. That may drown out the bzzzzzzzzz that I just cannot shake!