on the rocks. for once i am talking about my relationship with Joe and not a cocktail. Its been pretty tough lately. the distace is definately getting to us. and while we only have a few weeks left, i havent seen him in 3 weeks, and its gonna be another week and a half before I do again. we talk every night on the phone, and say nothing, because he hates talking on the fone. and, did i mention, he is miserable? so miserable that he is nasty whenever i talk to him. its bad enough that my boyfriend lives 4 hours away and it'll be over a month between our last visit and our next, but it really kills me that every time I talk to him he is mean to me, or yells at me, or snaps at me!!!! He's taking finals and getting ready to take the bar, which sucks, i did it last summer, but he doesn't have to try to make me cry every night!!!!! And he started smoking again, which pissed me off. I hate smoking, i have asthma, it bothers me. I won't live with a smoker, I don't want my stuff smelling of it, and I don't want his clothes reeking of smoke sitting around my apartment. it really bothers me. and whats more, I DON'T WANT MY HUSBAND TO BE TO DIE OF LUNG CANCER!!!! He tolk me, knowing I would be upset. then he yelled at me for getting upset, like it doesnt effect me. its been real bad lately. I hate fighting. anyone that knows me knows I AVOID CONFRONTATION!!! I get mad at my friends and ignore them. I have only really beedn mad 2 times... once at Kristy in 8th grade, where I wouldn't speak to her for 6 months and once at Pookie earlier this year where I didn't talk to her for about 4 months. with Joe, he picks fights with me every night. he tries to get me angry!!! It is really driving me insane. I love him to peices, and hate seeing us fight like this. Sorry, I really just needed to vent.