hey there. i no i havent been bloggin much at all. i really have so much to say, and no way to say it. i have hundreds of entries sitting in my head. but i can't write em. i can't put them down on paper for the world to read. lately i have been very closed to the world. i have so much going on in my head, and i don't really want to tell it to the world. or the 5 people that read this. i dunno. i am really confused, really upset. really not together. i dont know what is going on with me. my perfect life that exists in the bubble of happiness is melting down around me. i am sad all the time, upset, angry, disappointed. and i dont know how to fix it. my fairy tale doesnt seem to have its happily ever after ending that its supposed to and i don't really no what to do about it. :(